Hi all. This is, without a doubt, the absolutely very worst day of my life. And I mean that in all thinkable ways possible. This morning I heard that Jan has suddenly died yesterday. His wife called me to tell me the sad news and it hit me so damn hard that all I could say was how sorry I was for her. I just couldn't say anything more. God I felt empty. This just couldn't be true. In the early afternoon I called her back to excuse my short response from this morning. She then told me that Jan was still at work when it happened and was just about ready to go home when he suffered from a sudden cardiac arrest. The docter said he himself probably didn't feel it happening, which I guess is best for him. However Jan was only fourty one years young and that's way too soon to pass away. I feel like I have lost an older brother ... not sure what to say more now ... I'm still empty.