I suppose it happens to everybody every once and a while. You do something you normally like to do very much and all of a sudden you start wondering why you still keep doing that because for some odd reason it has not been quite that much fun lately. Yesterday evening, while I was getting a whooping from Bas at the snooker table, I had one of those moments (again). And it wasn't because he was winning all but one frames but for some reason the whole deal of snooker just didn't feel that great anymore. We talked about it a bit and generally agreed that it would be so much better if we were to play snooker just a little bit more often it would probably go much better. And therein lies part of the problem folks, because I neither have the time nor a lot of money to do that extra practicing. I've been thinking about this 'problem' of mine all night and a little bit too this morning because I wonder where this negativity towards snooker all of a sudden comes from. When I drove home last night I realized that the evening hadn't even been that bad. I think that in the majority of all frames we played, the two of us together scored somewhere in the range of ninety to a hundred points which simply means that these were pretty good & solid frames, by our current standards anyway. So, sure, last night I lost big time, in terms of frames, but not by much per frame so where does this uncomfortable feeling come from then? It's a buildup of all sorts of small things and now that I've been thinking it over it's not just to do with snooker. Even worse, I think that snooker is actually the smallest problem, if one at all. It seems that lately I sometimes don't have the energy for whatever I need to do. That being work, or snooker or even something like sim racing what I simply always love to do. I just can't get myself motivated enough to get going at those times. The mood I'm in differs from day to day. One day it's fine, the other I can't get myself to care about anything at all. So far I've not been able to find any kind of pattern or reason why but it's becoming pretty irritating to me, to say the least, and it really, really gets me down. And what's even worse is that it reflects on my friends and colleagues as well, who are about the last persons I'd want to bother with these things. Something needs to happen, all I need to find out is what ... To be continued.